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[Dec. 5th, 2009|02:07 am] |
Homosexuality isn't exactly something a 15 year old should be thinking about. But fuck that.
I mean, fuck. My parents went to an AIDS auction, and came back feeling disgusted. Hello? A freaking AIDS auction. It's not exactly a straight people convention right?
I really can't stand prudes.
Disclaimer: Standing up for gay rights DOESN'T mean you're gay. It means you have a very different and more open perspective to life.
Straight people take advantage of the privilege of being able to have public displays of affection, yet gay people don't? What fairness is there to that?
So when NORMAL gay people kiss, hold hands and have a good time they are suddenly transformed into the most hideous creatures on the planet. On the contrary, in fact, I feel that people who are unafraid to love, no matter what kind of love it is, are beautiful, daring, and lovable. Every couple I see who loves the way they want to, makes me smile inside.
I guess, loving the way you are born and want to love is wrong, huh?
It is much easier for this to be a monologue, rather than speak to someone about it. Because this topic is taboo. I hope that one day, it won't. I hope that one day, I can express my feelings and thoughts. And not be discriminated by them. And people will be allowed to love, the way they truly want to. |
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[Oct. 18th, 2009|03:54 pm] |
The fine line between fear and faith is blurred. Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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[Oct. 14th, 2009|09:45 pm] |
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I wish I didn't have a huge dependency on.... |
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[Oct. 14th, 2009|07:38 pm] |
Fuck it. I can't stand it. Thoughts are racing through my head like it's some NASCAR championship. My heart's beating so fast like a drummer on crack. My palms are sweating like it's bloody raining. A bit like it's melting away.
I think I question too much. I really try not to. But I can't. There's this HUGE echo of a 3 lettered word in my head. Which is "WHY". It's like I'm in the biggest emptiest room ever and the word "why" just keeps echoing, non-stop.I don't know. I think I question human existence way too much and everything that revolves around it.
Why was the Universe created? Why am I here? Why do I keep thinking this way? I really wanna kill the person who taught me the word "Why" right now. I can't stand unanswered questions. I believe there's a reason for everything, and it's not totally random. I've always had these thoughts ever since I've known how to think.
I think I over analyze, over think, and over question. I'm so afraid that I'll go mad one day thanks to this "not-so-spectacular" power of mine.
Maybe I'm just obsessed with figuring things out. So much so that I might short-circuit one day. Burn out.
I know I shouldn't be fussing over things that I will never find answers to. But I just can't stop myself.
I really should listen to Shakespeare. "Striving to be better, oft we mar what's well." I need to stop obsessing over everything, I guess.
I'm just manic. I really do need help. I wanna tell someone about this. I wanna speak. But I can't. It's either no one will listen, no one will give a flying fuck because they don't understand or no one believes I'm sane. Oh and whenever I DO try to speak, word vomit comes out. I'm incoherent. I just don't make sense. Maybe typing it out isn't as bad as hearing myself. Because when I do hear myself, I confirm that I am abnormal and that I might go mad.
Heck, maybe I should take up philosophy when I go to college or something.
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[Oct. 8th, 2009|09:11 pm] |
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Can't wait to see the Glee cast to do "Dancing with myself" by Billy Idol.
Hope it's soon. |
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[Oct. 8th, 2009|01:39 am] |
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Glee is srsly a pretty damn awesome show.
I love how music is an outlet for the characters to express their feelings and thoughts at that moment.
Trust me, it's a gagillion times more meaningful than HSM.
Or maybe it's just something to entertain me while I'm at home, hermit-style. |
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[Oct. 7th, 2009|03:50 pm] |
"I'm not crazy; I'm just a little unwell." |
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[Oct. 7th, 2009|03:36 pm] |
No matter what happens. At least I'll have those special someones.
I don't know. My mood's kindda better after watch Glee, talking to friends.
Starting to regret this choice though, kindda. All that attention, it kindda freaks me out.
But on the other hand, I gotta face this. Though I'm not sure if I'm ready yet.
Well, gotta stop sulking about I guess. Need to face up to this.
Glee has been more than inspiring. On a account that they sing awesome songs that people hardly ever hear nowadays.
Heck, maybe soon, I'll be able to talk about this. Just, not right now. Still freaks me out.
I freak myself out. |
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| The Noisettes |
[Oct. 6th, 2009|06:51 pm] |
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| | Never Forget You - The Noisettes | ] |
My new idol: Shingai Shoniwa.
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[Oct. 6th, 2009|03:04 pm] |
"All poets are mad" - Robert Burton
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