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[Oct. 18th, 2009|03:54 pm] |
The fine line between fear and faith is blurred. Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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| Dependent |
[Oct. 14th, 2009|09:45 pm] |
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I wish I didn't have a huge dependency on.... |
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[Oct. 14th, 2009|07:38 pm] |
Fuck it. I can't stand it. Thoughts are racing through my head like it's some NASCAR championship. My heart's beating so fast like a drummer on crack. My palms are sweating like it's bloody raining. A bit like it's melting away.
I think I question too much. I really try not to. But I can't. There's this HUGE echo of a 3 lettered word in my head. Which is "WHY". It's like I'm in the biggest emptiest room ever and the word "why" just keeps echoing, non-stop.I don't know. I think I question human existence way too much and everything that revolves around it.
Why was the Universe created? Why am I here? Why do I keep thinking this way? I really wanna kill the person who taught me the word "Why" right now. I can't stand unanswered questions. I believe there's a reason for everything, and it's not totally random. I've always had these thoughts ever since I've known how to think.
I think I over analyze, over think, and over question. I'm so afraid that I'll go mad one day thanks to this "not-so-spectacular" power of mine.
Maybe I'm just obsessed with figuring things out. So much so that I might short-circuit one day. Burn out.
I know I shouldn't be fussing over things that I will never find answers to. But I just can't stop myself.
I really should listen to Shakespeare. "Striving to be better, oft we mar what's well." I need to stop obsessing over everything, I guess.
I'm just manic. I really do need help. I wanna tell someone about this. I wanna speak. But I can't. It's either no one will listen, no one will give a flying fuck because they don't understand or no one believes I'm sane. Oh and whenever I DO try to speak, word vomit comes out. I'm incoherent. I just don't make sense. Maybe typing it out isn't as bad as hearing myself. Because when I do hear myself, I confirm that I am abnormal and that I might go mad.
Heck, maybe I should take up philosophy when I go to college or something.
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| Gleek 2.0 |
[Oct. 8th, 2009|09:11 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | glee, music, tv | ] |
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| | Jump - Van Halen | ] |
Can't wait to see the Glee cast to do "Dancing with myself" by Billy Idol.
Hope it's soon. |
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| Gleek |
[Oct. 8th, 2009|01:39 am] |
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| | Take A Bow - Glee Cast | ] |
Glee is srsly a pretty damn awesome show.
I love how music is an outlet for the characters to express their feelings and thoughts at that moment.
Trust me, it's a gagillion times more meaningful than HSM.
Or maybe it's just something to entertain me while I'm at home, hermit-style. |
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[Oct. 7th, 2009|03:50 pm] |
"I'm not crazy; I'm just a little unwell." |
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| An inch of hope |
[Oct. 7th, 2009|03:36 pm] |
No matter what happens. At least I'll have those special someones.
I don't know. My mood's kindda better after watch Glee, talking to friends.
Starting to regret this choice though, kindda. All that attention, it kindda freaks me out.
But on the other hand, I gotta face this. Though I'm not sure if I'm ready yet.
Well, gotta stop sulking about I guess. Need to face up to this.
Glee has been more than inspiring. On a account that they sing awesome songs that people hardly ever hear nowadays.
Heck, maybe soon, I'll be able to talk about this. Just, not right now. Still freaks me out.
I freak myself out. |
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| The Noisettes |
[Oct. 6th, 2009|06:51 pm] |
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| | Never Forget You - The Noisettes | ] |
My new idol: Shingai Shoniwa.
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[Oct. 6th, 2009|03:04 pm] |
"All poets are mad" - Robert Burton
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[Oct. 6th, 2009|02:59 pm] |
Sometimes I wish life was as simple as hanging a huge ass "Do Not Disturb" sign around your neck, so everyone would just bugger off. |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2009|03:17 pm] |
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| | 7 minutes in Heaven (Atavan Halen) - Fall Out Boy | ] |
"I'm having another episode; I just need a stronger dose." |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2009|11:40 pm] |
You have a caring family. You have the best friends.
And yet, you feel so alone. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2009|07:45 pm] |
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I. Fucking. Hate. Exams. |
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| Chinese! |
[Sep. 30th, 2009|07:54 pm] |
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Got my very FIRST A1 for Chinese this year. OMG! 41 out of 50. I KICK ASS BAYBEH. :D bloody shit, could have gotten 45 if I weren't such a retard. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2009|10:39 pm] |
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| | Blue Eyes - Mika | ] |
"Come, sorrow is so peculiar; It comes in a day, then it'll never leave you. You take a pill, wonder if it will fix you. Then wonder why sorrow has never left you" |
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| My motivation for End of Years! |
[Sep. 20th, 2009|06:24 pm] |
   
She's a Pembroke Welsh Corgi. Uber cute! Now only need to think of a name for her.
Jazz or Socks? :D
Getting her ard the 15th of Oct. LAST PAPER. WHOO!
Born 25th July 09. Entered kennel at 9th Sept 09. :D I'M COMING FOR YOU! She's kindda like the female dog version of Dave. SHORT AND FAT. :D
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[Sep. 15th, 2009|09:01 pm] |
Are we supposed to bear the burdens of life while living, all the while dreading death. And what death is. Is our entire life and death meant to be built on the basis suffering? |
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|08:55 pm] |
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I really need someone to talk to. And wouldn't judge me for who I am. And blame me for being like this. I really just need someone who understands. |
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[Sep. 13th, 2009|11:25 pm] |
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Do you ever feel like you're running so hard, just to stay in the same place? |
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[Sep. 13th, 2009|04:27 pm] |
“To be nobody but yourself in a world that's doing its best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.” - e. e. cummings |
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